Today as usually is the case, Rahul & I sat down for breakfast. We always start with fruits and move onto the main course – which is typical Indian breakfast next. As always, the last slice of the cut apple remained on the plate and I moved to my poha, and again as always Rahul offered the slice to me. This happens invariable every morning. I being a relatively fast eater (faster than Rahul atleast) finish my quota of fruits quickly and move to the breakfast first. And always Rahul will still keep the last piece for me and offer it to me. Today, when he did so I said, “It’s yours” and I was starting to say a lot more before I checked myself. I was going to say, “why do you do this? You know that piece is yours, yet to do this”. And then in my mind I was already moving to being exasperated by this act of love every morning – too much of goodness was turning to be an irritant for me (I know there’s quite a huge number of people out there like me who take many things for granted) .
I’m glad I checked myself and then sat reflecting as I chewed on my poha, ‘What and how would I feel if it were the other way round. If I had a partner who devoured everything first 🙂 or who felt entitled to having more, or having the last piece or the best piece or the first piece.’ I would feel wronged I know. I would feel let down and possibly angry, and here I was complaining about being given the first right of refusal. I thanked my stars and had my breakfast more gratefully today.
What are you grateful for today? Have a wonderful day.
Leena
5-04-22